Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Michael Mccormick
Michael Mccormick

A tech analyst and trend forecaster with over a decade of experience in business innovation and market research.